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Editor’s Note: Exactly one year ago, on July 20, 2023, my mother passed away and yesterday one of the smartest commenters on this site informed me that he was going to commit suicide today, on July 20, 2024. I sent him three emails: two begging him not to do it (in the third I asked for his family photo), that we needed people like him. He has not replied to them and I don’t know if, at this point in the day when he said he would commit suicide, he finally did it. But that suicide note is so disturbing to me that, if I don’t post anything in the next few days, it’s because I’ll be working on a long article that I might title ‘About the commenters on this site’.
Below I post the email that the commenter sent me, who in the comments section used to post long remarks on the last day of the year, which I then collected in featured posts subtitled ‘by I.N.’:
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Hello Dear Mr. Cesar,
I am the I(rrelevant) N(obody). I am grateful for your eye-opening contribution to the illumination, and all around emancipation of my—up until relatively recently—dormant psyche over the last 5 years. You acted as the fuse that triggered my spiritual maturity and ascension. You lead my exploration course down a very beneficial, wisdom—enriching and positive results—yielding road.
Having crossed the river imbues the Noble Soul of the Prospective Warrior with an unmatched confidence and also a realization of the approaches they need to implement in their effort to raise public awareness and rally support for our cause.
I want to leave one more mark on your White-awakening effort. I am not good at analyzing the various issues concerning the hindrance of the advancement of this, hopefully soon West-wide movement, but I have an aptitude at praising and highlighting the achievements of our past and the figures that forged it.
All I can currently offer as heartfelt advice for the near future, is for conscious Aryans to focus on their indefinite self-improvement in all aspects.
The jaw-dropping breakthroughs in science and the rapid advancements of technology are a tool they can utilize to further our agenda and fuel our propaganda.
The current landscape should not dissuade them. The enemy goes to great lengths to convey to us that it is hopeless to resist its genocidal onslaught. The system is desperate to silence and isolate us because it is afraid of our potential.
Harnessing the nascent power of Artificial Intelligence is integral to our corrupt status quo destabilizing cause, if and when the energy devolution transpires. Imagine the limitless possibilities a racially aware State apparatus can possess, as it implements mandatory racial segregation, mudblood surveillance and eventually, extermination.
I wish you the best, and may the Holy Ghost of our Race inspire more solidarity and understanding among us and guide us to more fruitful, more haze clearing, victory pursuing, righteousness upholding, enlightening and evolutionary paths!
Fight for the preservation of the Nordic Aryan superwoman!
The most ideal representative of human evolution!
The uncontested pinnacle of the white race!
At the top of the physiognomic, anthropological and existential hierarchy!
We must not conceal our “indiscretion” toward this vital and pressing matter.
It is an ethical, aesthetic and artistic imperative to acknowledge and emphasize the fragile yet unparalleled beauty of the divine nymphs of Europe!
I humbly say sorry for not answering your mail on June, 2023. Though there was no way I would have lost trace of your digital whereabouts.
I apologize, but due to a plethora of hurdles I was mired in, I could not be a consistent commenter, though I was a devoted and avid reader of your entries.
I also humbly ask you to forgive me for my absence. Unfortunately, I cannot stay alive any longer. I have undergone an unbearable personal and familial tragedy that compels me to take my own life.
I permanently salute you. I am going to commit suicide on July 20th, 2024, to honor The Fuhrer and symbolically join him in his struggle against the traitors who plotted his assassination exactly 80 years ago.
Please, do not alert any authorities.
I do not want to live in a world where Uncle Adolf lost the war, and I lack the strength to contribute to the restoration of His holy memory and fight for the birth of a just New World.
My name was:
Diophantus Vitribellus Kalkimenes
I was a 25 year old Greek Male, born on 12/11/1998.
Farewell.
HEIL HITLER FOREVER!
I am really, extremely thankful for all your teachings. I am leaving you two final works, wherein I exalt the actions and personalities of The Fuhrer and The Reichsfuhrer, who spearheaded the Aryan recovery and counterattack last century, despite the short length of their exploits and their eventual downfall. One For Each.
With this I merely want to offer my two cents and my deep respect and admiration towards their respective works and racial justice-abiding ideals. So, I have a final tribute to honour the two Men who served as the main sculptors of a promising, utopian even New World:
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7 replies on “Suicide note”
There was a fellow related to the Gamergate who committed suicide. I cannot remember who he was. However, I saw his suicide note. He filmed it as a video. In it he said that he felt really bad; had felt bad for years; was feeling worse and worse; and could see no scenario in which he could recover. I remember feeling exactly this way. I don’t feel this way now. This is why I never criticise preconiliar Catholicism too harshly. I criticise it when I need to, and leave it at that. However, the rites, rituals and music of preconiliar Catholicism helped me to transcend, in a large degree, my depression and other problems. Even today, Beethoven’s Missa Solemnis always puts me in a good mood. The people that I met in preconiliar Catholicism were, by and large, wonderful people.
I thought that this blogpost was going to be a resumption of Suicide Note, a manifesto written by a Pessimistic Antinatalist/Promortalist Jew that you blogged in instalments.
I can relate to gaedhal.
Often, I have met good people within the sects of catholicism while the awful atheist are mostly unbearable.
It is unfortunate that they still have a strong grip on people’s spirits.
We must press on, despite the ods and the darkness of our times.
So, just another fighting male lost?, come on, if you are going to die at least execute the most niggers or sand niggers you can. Make them afraid and insecure. Die as a warrior!, are you Greek?. Die as a fucking Spartan in the Thermopylae, at the end every one of us are going to die, and we all should expect to die killing as many shitskins as we can when shtf. , We are men and it is our duty. Dont be a cuck. As men, we must desire to exterminate and hate as many males from other tribe, more if they are another species and shit colored. Get their riches and land , having a good life and by this growing our own with our women.Good luck my friend. See you in Olympus!
Volkor, thanks for your comment.
This is the demoralization that the system wants. Push us to the point where we will kick ourselves out of the game without blowing up their “temples” and holy niggers.
Isolation is terrible. If a man has no woman, no children and no nation to fight for, what else can he do?
Only very emasculated men can tolerate living well like cattle waiting for the slaughter.
We must keep on, regardless of the circumstances.
The spartans didn’t back off despite overwhelming odds, and so shall we.
Most of us are lone wolfs, waiting the moment. Meanwhille focus on gaining skills, staying in shape, learn to use guns , some martial arts if you can, gain and spende money while ot still have any value, be succcesful, trying to wake up others, slowly but surely, and always put down your enemies without a blink.
There is a lot to improve.
Even as a loser pariah, you can become a criminal , a good criminal against the degenerate system, we can always poison niggers water or something, become rich by violence , although it implies a short life, pillaging will be alway prefirible than a pathetic suicide.
Do you have any physical defect? Learn about chemistry and poisons, or mechatronic and make remote bombing drones. Every one can add to the cause, anyone.
The time will become and is approching with every day passing away, that we will have act, the question is, are you prepared? Do you have some experience? , are you ready to liquidate any shitskin in order to survive?, are you ready to take a protect our women? , to execute the traitors?. It is time to enter in the right mood, the Aryan berseker mood. Stop being an expectator in life.
Hi Volkor, not sure what you feel on Lucy Johnstne’s book ‘Uses and Abuses of Psychiatry: A Critical Look at Psychiatric Practice’, but a segment from the first case history seems to echo this. We know limits. People do what they do, and no more. But no less. I hope he is not dead. I agree with Cesar; there is no place for suicide in the code our sacred words. If he I dead though, remember him. Remember what he did do that can be honoured. His actions, and anything of value he wrote (and which should not be lost to dark time). For the record, I’m not a ‘lone wolf’.I believe in Gemeinschift – community co-operation following the life principle, the fraternal ‘Ehrfurcht vor dem Leben’. I am a revolutionary mind, but I have little time for shared bravado cliches, however sincere (as I know you are). There are not enough people like that found yet, and 25 is a waste of life, and one I do not condone, as it indeed, at these historical conditions, with so very little of true forward observation (or hardcopy samizdat, etc.) validates the principle of suicide. One must be consolidated. Perhaps I’m not hyperindividualistic enough. The person has been forced to cook by her family all her life, and has subsumed this responsibility also, even as she is exhausted, and broken down. What do psychiatric professionals do? They goad her thouhlessly into forced art/cooking class, one hospitalized, to make her cook again, to break her back into the only role of a dead status quo. My partner makes good food. I make better though, and I like to cook myself regularly. See this as just an analogy, although I saw, if I am not barking up the wrong tree, a little resonance. I’d like to know more of his life. An unacceptable decision, but I do not know more, and will not be insulting him if he is at death’s door anyway. One turns despair of ‘on the brink’ to long-distance murder then, were it not for the plausible deniability that is foundational to our hideous society, and so very much intrinsic. When I saw ‘Homo Inanis’ at times on here, I should reference my non-random quantum mechanics biophysics research in the background on a better evolution theory in non-linear dynamics, a panentheistic, unapologetically vitalist complexity unhindered by the Christian Newton, or by automata theory, for the sake of symbiotic autopoesis and all the scope of morphogenesis unbound. We are, here, more than chaos, and thermodynamics needs a new biotonic law, really.
Its hard for younger people if they comprehend how much we have been betrayed, without the life experiences and huge amount of background history to be processed.
I know sometimes it took me months of quiet reflection to comprehend history and how it has been lied about or omitted.
There was a reason the Nazi party emphasised physical activities and creative pursuits, over pure intellectualism which can lead to a nihilism or false life.