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Child abuse Literature

Peter Pan

Today I’m giving my brother the first two volumes of my autobiographical trilogy. The fact that my surviving siblings haven’t read it is, in itself, proof of how normies repress family tragedies at all costs, even if they’ve witnessed some of them.

I’ve been highlighting on this site that fairy tales contain profound messages about the mistreatment of children by their parents, provided we recognize that adaptations like Disney’s have little to do with the original stories. Yesterday I watched with interest this video:

When James Barrie was a child, his older brother David died a day before his fourteenth birthday from a fall while ice skating. The effects of his death drove their mother mad, and were described at length by Barrie himself years later in the fictionalized biography Margaret Ogilvy: By Her Son, where he addresses in detail the feelings and emotions of young James, his strategies for helping his mother overcome the deep depression into which she had fallen, and his attempts to offer himself as a kind of replacement for the deceased boy.

“Offering himself as a replacement” means that Barrie sacrificed his true self due to his mother’s profound depression: a drama symbolized by Peter Pan, a character he created for a play that premiered in London in 1904.

Peter Pan is a boy who never grows up, is ten years old, and hates the adult world. The figure of Peter Pan is inspired by the Llewelyn Davies brothers. Barrie developed the idea for Peter Pan from his time spent with and friendship with the Davies children. He often performed small plays with the Davieses and actively participated in their childhood games.

But the most sinister aspect of the matter is that the commandment “thou shan’t grow up,” with which Barrie’s mother’s horrific depression had programmed the mind of her surviving son, was perpetuated by Barrie himself when he adopted these children after their parents died—watch the video above. Trauma demands repetition: something similar to what Beethoven did to his nephew, whom he also adopted and mistreated (the nephew, as an adult, attempted suicide by shooting himself in the temple), due to the abuse Ludwig van Beethoven’s father had inflicted on him as a child.

But that’s another story…

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Nick Fuentes

Webbon’s

interview – 1

“For me, the overall result is the visible and systematic poisoning of the youth of our people through Christian education…” —Himmler to Bormann (see the bibliographic source for this letter in my article from yesterday).

Yesterday, the first hour of a ten-hour series of Nick Fuentes’ interview with Christian nationalist Joel Webbon was uploaded on YouTube.

At the beginning of the interview, we see that Nick is infinitely closer to Christian nationalism than to white nationalism (recall that in his interview with Tucker, Nick said he was a white nationalist but not at the level of William Pierce’s WN, his words). Obviously, neither Fuentes nor Webbon are National Socialists.

Shortly after, Nick says that the US should have a Christian government. Compare this to what Richard Weikart says about Hitler’s esoteric anti-Christianity, in contrast to the Führer’s exoteric image (prolefeed for the German proles).

Soon after, both say things that go against the US Constitution, such as that the government should not pass laws regarding the establishment of a religion. Then Nick mildly approves of the interviewer’s crazy idea of implementing blasphemy laws in the US: something that would overturn the First Amendment. Interestingly, as a gospel follower, Nick doesn’t want the death penalty for most murderers, but he does want it for those who desecrate the consecrated host or wine.

Only at this point does Nick speak about secular racialism, and they even briefly touch on the topic of our worldview, which we might call anti-Christian racism. Nick confesses that his Groyper movement was precisely a reaction against that secularized racialism: a step back towards American traditionalism.

The interview ends with Nick expressing his desire for an alliance between his America First ideology and his interviewer’s Christian nationalism. Their movement represents, in my humble opinion, the last-ditch effort of American Christianity.

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Heinrich Himmler Kali Yuga Racial right

Noonday demons

On this second day of the year, I would like to elaborate a little on what I have been saying recently about depression.

If Kali Yuga is pure poison for the priest of the sacred words, how can one find some encouragement?

Encouragement comes naturally through dedication, but only when that work is aimed at preserving and advancing the 14 and 4 words, which define the purpose behind my struggle. What happens when virtually all Aryans have degenerated, and no one is properly fighting for those words?

I can entertain myself for a few minutes a day on X, as there are several neo-Nazis who speak as I usually speak. But all of them lack a plan for how we are going to take power. For such a plan, we would need to live very close together, always eat together as in the Spartan syssitia, and conspire on how we could wake other whites from their catalepsy.

That alone would lift the spirits.

But I have no one in this third-world metropolis with twenty million non-whites to talk to. And the saddest thing is that Western racialists living in predominantly Aryan towns also have no one to talk to in their cities or villages.

A normie works for more comfort: his deity is the god of riches, Mammon. For us, if there is such a thing as following the decrees of providence, these are the sacred words.

But what can a priest do in the darkest hour?

Basically, get depressed because white nationalists are, as we have seen, de facto conservatives and have no plan to take power in their nations.

If Russia’s entry into Kiev fatally disrupted the traitorous European governments, my spirits would rise because that could mark the beginning of the end of Kali Yuga.

But that’s not happening yet…

The horrible dilemma that a priest on the other side of the Atlantic and I suffer from is that it is impossible for us to wait passively for that collapse because that wait leads to exasperating depression.

What to do then?

If there were already several priests, even if we didn’t live together, we could try to do something on Rumble. The West’s Darkest Hour has already been exhausted in the written word, but audio-visual communication, if it were every day, would reinvigorate this blog.

But even that is not possible due to the language barrier (I write in Spanish and then convert the text into English with a free online translator; then I correct the software’s syntax).

That condemns me to a purely textual blog, although if I already had young pupils aspiring to the priesthood, they would be using A.I. to translate my audio-visual monologues into English. But I have realised that I don’t work well when I’m just talking solo to the camera. I need at least one other person to interact with verbally.

It seems incredible, but for a Kalki apprentice like me, what would lift my spirits the most would be a nuclear exchange between Europe and Russia so that the System would be destroyed in a single day, even though in the coming months I could die from nuclear winter if the US committed the stupidity of intervening.

Nuclear fantasy aside, what would lift my spirits stratospherically would be to live with people who think like me. I couldn’t live with the Groypers, for example, because they have no plans for ethnic cleansing in the US. It has to be someone who religiously believes in the 14 words. And if another man also believes in the 4, he would be a brother, a soul mate.

What to do in a city where one is a sort of Diogenes going out with a lamp in broad daylight to find a single man and never seeing him? How can one not get depressed if we add to that the fact that white nationalism is phoney (unless someone vehemently believes and speculates in scenarios like The Turner Diaries)?

Every single day becomes a struggle against the noonday demons, for which I am not in the least bit to blame. The culprits are the millions of Aryan males who are doing nothing: lambs to the slaughter of the anti-white System that covers the West.

Would a way to entertain myself in the coming days be to offer constructive criticism of the Third Reich pamphlets I own? Years ago, I realised that the exoteric part of National Socialism lacked the depth of the esoteric part.

Himmler in letter to Bormann on how Christian education has poisoned our youth:

“We already have the best contact with the Reich Youth Leadership. But I think the report is so important that I didn’t want to withhold it from you. For me, the overall result is the visible and systematic poisoning of the youth of our people through Christian education, which we obviously do not provide enough positive ideological education for in our youth, especially now in wars.” [1]

Part of my depression stems from the despair that more than eighty years ago the Germans had hit the nail on the head. In contrast, today’s American racialists (Europeans are punished if they dare to speak out, as happened to Brigitte Bardot) cling to Judeo-Christianity: the primary cause of white decline.
 
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[1] Source: NARA, RG 242, T-175, Roll 131 p.640, National Archives.

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3-eyed crow

2026

The editor of The West’s Darkest Hour in Spain, in the place and year he discovered white nationalism on the internet.

The previous year was a terrible one for me for reasons I won’t elaborate on. Only if the following happens this year could I be consoled:

• That the dollar not only slides in favour of gold and silver, but that compared to precious metals it hyperinflates becoming confetti.

• That the Russians enter Kiev and, due to recent European threats, basically take over Ukrainian territory so that, once defeated, the Ukrainians can no longer rearm themselves or dream of belonging to NATO.

Although if I had absolute power I would conquer all of Russia for a Fourth Reich honouring the will of the Führer, what matters now is that the anti-white system—represented by the European Union, NATO and the United States—perish. And the two points above, taking into account that the European fiat currencies have been pegged to the dollar since the Bretton Woods agreements in 1944 (when the Hellstorm Holocaust against the Germans was already beginning to be perpetrated), would be blows that would mark the beginning of the death of the System.

That the Russians will win in Ukraine, and that victory will annihilate NATO and the European Union, is something that several pundits have been predicting in the alternative media, both in English and in my native language. But that a Russian victory will fulfil Putin’s dream of returning to the gold standard, reversing the Bretton Woods agreements (and causing the dollar to collapse) will probably happen later.

Once the anti-white System begins to crumble, my golden dream is that a few zoomers will begin to repudiate the Christian ethics of white nationalists like Nick Fuentes and become spokespeople (say, on Rumble) for the sacred words.

But the latter is already too much to dream of…

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Jesus Richard Carrier

New book

Below text by MythVision Podcast

(watch it here)

Join Derek Lambert for a live round-table with Dr. Richard Carrier, Dr. Richard C. Miller, and Dr. Aaron Adair as we dig into Carrier’s provocative new book, The Obsolete Paradigm of a Historical Jesus—and why he thinks parts of biblical studies (and even peer review) keep dodging the core arguments.

Carrier surveys a decade of responses to his and Raphael Lataster’s work and finds that many critiques avoid the actual evidence and logic, a pattern he says signals a deeper problem in the field.

A big theme tonight: why historians “must learn math.” Carrier argues that historical conclusions need explicit logic and probability—Bayesian reasoning—rather than gut feel or ad-hoc explanations.

We’ll unpack priors, likelihoods, and how to tell when we’re explaining evidence vs. explaining it away. The new book also hit several hot-button texts where Carrier says traditional readings are too thin to prove historicity:

  • Romans 1:3—ambiguous and compatible with non-historical interpretations, so it can’t carry the case.
  • Galatians 4:4—part of an allegorical argument, not a plain biographical claim.
  • “Brother of the Lord”—in earliest Christianity, all baptized believers saw themselves as Christ’s siblings, which complicates appeals to this phrase as biographical proof.

Plus: Docetism—Carrier’s new book contends the modern category is a misconstruction of scattered ancient ideas and later polemics. We’ll examine what ancient sources actually say. Whether you agree or not, this conversation aims to model rigorous critical debate about evidence, method, and how scholarly paradigms change.

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Axiology Richard Carrier

Repudiation

I recently listened to an entire debate between Richard Carrier—whose scepticism about the historical Jesus I admire—and a Christian nationalist. The debate highlighted the big ideological differences between secular humanists and Christian nationalists.

I was greatly surprised that, when it comes to the 14 words, although the Christian nationalist is not a Nazi like us, he is much closer to our side because he is concerned about mass migration to the West. On the other hand, Carrier approves of the mass migration of coloureds that metamorphosed Canada and Sweden! Carrier also doesn’t care about the sexual dissipation that has been destroying the white race in recent decades.

I believe that Gaedhal, whose text mentioning Carrier I published on Saturday, is right to speak of “atheistic hyper-Christianity”. Folks like Carrier have abandoned belief in God and the historicity of Jesus—at the cost of hypertrophying suicidal Christian ethics: what I have been calling neochristianity on this site. Do you recall this passage from a seminal article on this site by a Swedish blogger?:

Secular Christianity has thrown out God and Christ, but keeps the Christian ethics (inversion of values, etc.). And the Christian ethics actually gets heightened and unfettered in Secular Christianity (I have written much about that in my blog).

With Christ as part of the equation, the Christian ethics of the Gospels became balanced. Humans were seen as imperfect, and it was Christ who covered for us with his self-sacrifice.

In Secular Christianity, each person must be like Jesus himself, practising self-sacrifice, since there’s no other way to realise Christian ethics. On top of that, with the Industrial Revolution and the surplus it created in our societies, we came to the point where all the good deeds of Christian ethics could finally be executed by giving off our surplus to all the poor and weak foreign people around the world: food, Western medicine, and other aid.

It is incredible the damage that Christianity still causes to so-called freethinkers, agnostics, atheists and secular humanists—all of them clueless of the fact that their scale of values is a secular embodiment of the Gospel message.

Racialist Christians aren’t much better. Nick Fuentes recently responded harshly to Vivek Ramaswamy, an Indian living in the US. However, he added that if the Indians’ grandchildren wholeheartedly accepted American culture, Nick could consider them for entry into his country. This contrasts with the priests of the sacred words who desire a far more extreme outcome—one resembling the ethnic cleansing described in William Pierce’s novel.

The priest repudiates both atheists and Christians, and if he had the power, he would replace the Christian/secular humanist paradigm with Hitlerism.

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Heinrich Himmler Quotable quotes

Himmler quote

“During the thousand years before you, your blood was purely preserved, so that you would be who you are. Now you must preserve your blood, so that all of the generations of the next thousand years will honour you and thank you.”

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Christian art

César,

by Gaedhal

I am not a Randian Libertarian, but one thing that she got right is that we are at home upon the earth. The Orthodox anchorite is not at home upon the earth, which is why he is climbing a ladder to “Heaven” to escape it. Take a look at some of these Orthodox icons. They can be really trippy:

The earth is presented as a sterile desert… because Christianity was, originally, a desert religion.

As we discussed on your blog, César, there is probably a Schopenhauerian, Pessimistic, Benetarian, Antinatalist, EFIL-ist interpretation to these icons: better to have never been, and second best is to deny the will to live, and to annihilate oneself, through ascesis and chastity/celibacy, so as not to burden another generation with the “pain and boredom” of life, as pessimists put it. As Jesus himself said: let he who can take castration, take it. One of the things that Antinatalists often do is get vasectomies. Richard Carrier has gotten a vasectomy, which is why I suspect his being an Antinatalist.

In my view, “Jesus”, is merely Nirvana, the “breathed-out state”, as Alan Watts put it, i.e. the “all-sufficient void” as Schopenhauer put it. It is conjectured by the likes of Richard Carrier that there was an adept Christianity, that is now lost to us, wherein the obviously fictional life of Jesus was understood as a parable. The Christian adepts understood that deceased Jewish carpenters do not respawn and float off into the sky. Dominic Crossan, my fellow Ulsterman from the lost county of Donegal, also believed that Jesus’s entire life, as recounted by the gospels, and especially the original gospel, the gospel of Mark, is a parable.

But a parable for what? Who knows? But given that we know that there were Antinatalist Buddhist preachers/missionaries in the Levant, since around 100 BCE—see mythicist papers for more on this—perhaps Christianity is a parable for the various forms of Pessimism, listed above.

If John of Patmos had an IQ north of 80, then he too would have understood that Jesus’s life was a parable. Again, virgins don’t give birth, and dead Jewish carpenters never respawn and levitate into the sky… there are no exceptions to this. I am putting money on the fact that the Jewish con-artists who wrote the New Testament understood this as well. Thus, the true end to the Book of Revelation would be the earth melting in fervent heat—as pseudo-Peter sayeth in an epistle—and the sky being rolled up as a scroll. The sky was a physical thing in those days, preventing the primordial waters from drowning us all. Thus, the Revelation is an EFIL-ist parable where the ideal state is the destruction of the planet. Revelation is a 2nd-Century C.E. version of the Red-button EFIL-ist thought experiment. The “New Heavens and the New Earth” is merely for the non-adepts, for the profane.

As Schopenhauer says: he is practising true Christianity, and in my view it could actually be the original version of Christianity.

And here is the website where Salm explores the link, perhaps direct, between Buddhism and Christianity. We know that there were Buddhist proselytizers from India in the region, at about the turn of the era, in about 1 CE.

However, it could just be a case of independent convergence. This is a hell-planet where living things must kill and eat other living things to survive. This is the Darwinian problem of evil [emphasis added by Ed.]. No sensible or ethical god would have created a system like this. This is why I view “theistic evolution”, such as that promoted by Biologos, to be every bit as delusional as creationism. To me, Pete Enns is every bit as delusional as Ken Ham. Once we introduce gods to evolution, then it becomes intelligent design. Theistic Evolution is an oxymoron to me.

Given that this is a hell planet for most sentient beings, then the thought often independently arises that it were better to have never been. The Jesus movement need not have had a formal connection to Buddhism to come up with Pessimism and Antinatalism—let he who can receive [castration] receive it—on their own.

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Psychology Racial right

Responding

to Robert

Le Suicidé by Manet (ca. 1877-1891).

This morning, Robert commented on this site. I empathise with him because I feel the same way: Kali Yuga is killing the spirit of noble men, while all we see around us is racial betrayal and the cult of ugliness (the antithesis of the benign world in Germany glimpsed in the Beethoven film I recently promoted). Since I, too, especially in the mornings when I wake up, find myself in a state of anxious despair that eats away at my soul, I understand Robert.

But we know the medicine.

Robert: Have you read the featured article carefully?

The solution to our dilemma lies in forming a brotherhood of the sacred words. That obviously implies that some of us priests live together. I find it pathological that we live so far apart. If we lived together, it would be very easy to plan the content of the next podcast: it would be a daily show, almost every day of the year, in which two or three priests would sit around a round table to discuss current affairs (I mentioned something about this in my post on 17 December).

Precisely because that podcast would show how folk like Nick Fuentes are stuck in the middle of the Rubicon, with us talking on solid ground on the other side of the river, it would be the most radical audio-visual podcast of all the racialist forums, without comparison!

I don’t know if you’ve read my article on depression. Depression is hatred/anger repressed due to the norms of stupid society, whether it be to comply with the fourth Judeo-Christian commandment, or in our case, because we are atomised due to the idiotic behaviour of “white nationalists” who don’t live under the same roof to create the proper Männerbund.

But simply living together wouldn’t be enough to cure us of depression. What cures us is open, inflammatory, blatant and public genocidal hatred: what we would do daily in the podcasts!

Of course, that would be unnecessary if there were already a revolution, at least in a Western country: we would simply go there to fight, even if we died in the fray. But there is no revolution because all Aryan men, including white nationalists, share ethnosuicidal Christian ethics (as we saw recently when discussing Richard Spencer’s recent interview with Fuentes).

It is Christian ethics that we must first break down so that Aryan men dare to do something substantial in the real world (although, for the moment, only at the podcast level). Being atomised will only continue to destroy our spirit. Alas, some make these podcasts in the wrong country, like our friends Joseph Walsh and Chris Gibbons, who are serving years in prison in the UK due to their Black Wolf Radio.

If Europeans took their priestly vows (cf. the featured article once again), they could come to a country where it would be possible to have an audio-visual equivalent of Black Wolf Radio without running afoul of European, Canadian or Australian laws, whose governments seem intent on eradicating white populations (that also happens in the US, but at least they have the First Amendment there).

While you take your vows, as I suggested today, read William Pierce’s novel. It will immediately lift you out of your depression. But it will return after a day when you finish it, because there are no men like that in the West. Racialists are all like those women I was talking about recently (the refugee ladies during the Battle of Blackwater). They are so feminised that they are waiting for a hero on a white horse to come and rescue them, instead of being that hero themselves.

This sheds light on my post about the Eroica Symphony and why it made me cry: those were times when the ideals of the French Revolution inspired Beethoven, although, as we see in the film, he later tore up the page, very angry, on which he dedicated the symphony to Napoleon when he crowned himself emperor.

Understanding that music and getting out of depression are two sides of the same coin (Beethoven himself harboured suicidal ideation before composing the Eroica). Regarding us, only by living together will it be possible to have a kind of Spartan Syssitia that lifts our spirits. (The alternative is becoming prey to the noonday demons and ending up like the guy in Manet’s painting.)

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Arthur Schopenhauer Philosophy

Pessimism

Parerga and Paralipomena, German original edition, 1851.

The day before yesterday I quoted a passage from Schopenhauer’s most readable book. This Christmas I would like to respond to what Gaedhal told me today. He says that the bourgeoisie leads to antinatalism and pessimism, and so does Christianity:

My task is to obliterate those forces that ruin the joy of life. The abusiveness of Christianity, of “our parents’ religion”, as you put it, is one of these malevolent joy-disrupting forces. This is where the Thanatos impulse comes from.

I believe the latter is the main factor, even more so than the bourgeois way of life. Let’s quote, for example, other paragraphs from Schopenhauer’s book, this time from the chapter “On Affirmation and Denial of the Will to Live”:

Between the ethics of the Greeks and the ethics of the Hindus, there is a glaring contrast. In the one case (with the exception, it must be confessed, of Plato), the object of ethics is to enable a man to lead a happy life; in the other, it is to free and redeem him from life altogether—as is directly stated in the very first words of the Sankhya Karika.

Allied with this is the contrast between the Greek and the Christian idea of death. It is strikingly presented in a visible form on a fine antique sarcophagus in the gallery of Florence, which exhibits, in relief, the whole series of ceremonies attending a wedding in ancient times, from the formal offer to the evening when Hymen’s torch lights the happy couple home.

Compare with that the Christian coffin, draped in mournful black and surmounted with a crucifix! How much significance there is in these two ways of finding comfort in death. They are opposed to each other, but each is right. The one points to the affirmation of the will to live, which remains sure of life for all time, however rapidly its forms may change. The other, in the symbol of suffering and death, points to the denial of the will to live, to redemption from this world, the domain of death and devil. And in the question between the affirmation and the denial of the will to live, Christianity is in the last resort right.

The contrast which the New Testament presents when compared with the Old, according to the ecclesiastical view of the matter, is just that existing between my ethical system and the moral philosophy of Europe.

The Old Testament represents man as under the dominion of Law, in which, however, there is no redemption. The New Testament declares Law to have failed, frees man from its dominion, and in its stead preaches the kingdom of grace, to be won by faith, love of neighbour and entire sacrifice of self [emphasis added]. This is the path of redemption from the evil of the world. The spirit of the New Testament is undoubtedly asceticism, however your protestants and rationalists may twist it to suit their purpose.

Asceticism is the denial of the will to live; and the transition from the Old Testament to the New, from the dominion of Law to that of Faith, from justification by works to redemption through the Mediator, from the domain of sin and death to eternal life in Christ, means, when taken in its real sense, the transition from the merely moral virtues to the denial of the will to live.

My philosophy shows the physical foundation of justice and the love of mankind, and points to the goal to which these virtues necessarily lead, if they are practised in perfection. At the same time it is candid in confessing that a man must turn his back upon the world, and that the denial of the will to live is the way of redemption. It is therefore really at one with the spirit of the New Testament, whilst all other systems are couched in the spirit of the Old; that is to say, theoretically as well as practically, their result is Judaism—mere despotic theism.

In this sense, then, my doctrine might be called the only true Christian philosophy—however paradoxical a statement this may seem to people who take superficial views instead of penetrating to the heart of the matter.

The heart of the matter is Xtian ethics! It is striking that, despite not being a Christian, Schopenhauer shared such Christian principles. This is what makes him, in our eyes, a “secular Christian” (what Gaedhal calls a hyper-Christian atheist).

The fact that this secular philosopher made such concessions to the religion of his parents would prompt the next great German philosopher, Nietzsche, to delve into the root of the matter. Among other neochristians, Nietzsche criticised Schopenhauer, whom he had admired in his early youth.