This will be a long post, but I would appreciate it if you would read it.
When I discovered your blog a year ago I was a ‘racialist’ Christian. Not even just a neo-Christian: an outright Christian. I would say I was at Level 4 on Mauricio’s scale.
At first, your blog posts filled me with anger, disgust and despair. You had revealed my belief system for the Chimera that it was: irrational, contradictory and two-faced. And I hated your for it. You dashed my belief in God or the afterlife, the belief that co-existence with non-Aryans was possible and more importantly my belief that Christianity and Christian values were compatible with The Fourteen Words. Almost every part of me wanted to leave this place and never come back, but something inside of me said, ‘Stay and push through the pain’.
I dreaded every new blog post and comment you created and put off beginning to read your essays until about two months ago, because I knew the further I went the more my worldview would be dismantled.
I scoured the internet in a frenzy to look for any piece of evidence that would debunk or rebuke you, but found none because no debunkings and rebukes were possible.
Eventually, I arrived at the conclusion that your explanations for the decline of Aryans, and the solutions of how to fix it, made more sense than any other, and I accepted them. And the most astonishing thing of all? I achieved this in the span of but a year! Far quicker than the 5-10 years Apollokult had estimated. You had rehabilitated me and made me sober.
Sober. That is the word I use.
Because my actions were like that of an addict who had been presented with undeniable proof that their addiction is harmful and leads to a dead end. When such a situation happens, an addict will respond frantically, even violently. They will search for any and all excuses for why they should be allowed to continue their destructive behaviours: 95-99 percent of them will fool themselves and go into relapse.
However, there are a scant few that will be honest with themselves and accept that there is no excuse, take the step into sobriety, and help others to do the same.
I am such a case.