in memory of the German war dead
Only thanks to the help of an old friend, who offered me his house as storage, yesterday I managed to save the furniture that accompanied me in my home during my childhood and adolescence. Now I need to complete the long bureaucratic process to rent a modest flat in a decent area of the capital.
While I settle in, a helpful way to spend the time would be to listen to this poem, and also these audio clips from Benjamin’s books.
Being a ‘man against his time’ not only means revaluing the values regarding the heroic National Socialists who died in the war, but also inverting them equally when it comes to other lies accepted by society—such as psychiatry and what really causes mental disorders.
If the racialists understood what Benjamin and I have written in our autobiographical books, things like the grotesque betrayal of Don Black’s son, or the betrayal of William Pierce’s son, wouldn’t have happened; and I dare say David Irving’s daughter wouldn’t have become schizophrenic.
It’s time for contemporary racialists to stop believing the System’s lies (psychiatry is taught in every medical school). A good way to do so is to start familiarising onseself with the literature of those of us who have survived truly hellish adolescences.
8 replies on “A poem”
Thank you for posting my links. Just to say, the audio clips in the article are from my modern day current affairs/modern psychiatric diary/theory piece The Less Than Jolly Heretic. For the preview readings from my childhood and adolescence autobiography, Consumption, or for my latter-day diaries (both are in TTS for clarity) go to: https://bfts2025.wixsite.com/website
Hi Benjamin,
Yesterday I told you by email that a notable racialist told me in England that Irving treated his employees very poorly, and I speculated that he treated his daughter so badly that she became schizophrenic. Today I read this in the comments section of Counter-Currents:
I do believe him. Why doubt it? My life was destroyed when, almost half a century ago, a mental health professional didn’t believe my testimony about what my parents did. So no one protected me. Relatives didn’t want to listen to me either.
Both anti-racist normies and racialist neo-normies ignore these realities. And I suppose something very similar happened with Black’s transgender son. One doesn’t become mentally ill to that degree (sex ‘changing’ ??) unless something devastating—soul-murder—happened at an early age. The fact that the racial right ignores my writings on the model of trauma (cf. Day of Wrath) won’t prevent me from soon translating the second chapter of my Hojas Susurrantes.
Back to what the C-C commenter already said:
It couldn’t be clearer! In fact, the commenter was completely unaware of Pierce’s private behaviour at home. In Toxic Parents Susan Forward mentions a highly respected banker who used to ask his son to suck him off. Susan also mentions the case of a highly respected pastor who, obviously in the privacy of four walls, molested his daughter.
Naturally: neither the banker nor the pastor would do such things in public! Knowledge of how Pierce, Black, and Irving behaved in the privacy of their homes cannot come from their acquaintances, as there are Jekyll-Hyde changes in some families who behave like PR in public and only transform with the children when the visitors left the house (precisely what happened in my family).
Obviously, the C-C commenter didn’t have hidden audio-visual devices in Pierce’s house for years to make sure he didn’t hit his son, just as those who respected the banker and the pastor never, ever saw the family dynamics once the visitors left!
Normies and neonormies are altogether ignorant of the trauma model of mental disorders. And these betrayals of Black’s son, Pierce’s son—both hate white supremacism—or the psychological breakdown of Irving’s daughter will continue, in other families, to be taboo in a world governed by what Alice Miller called Schwarze Pädagogik.
A brilliant response piece – superb. Yup. You’re right… so many times in my life I’ve felt/observed this same phenomenon: abusers putting on the act in public and just being taken at their word, at face value, or the other person’s wishful-thinking long term assumptions about them, or idealisms about them, or favouritism, or even on account of their profession at all, and the sort of reputation one could ‘professionally’ expect (do these people have no imagination?!).
Can’t we see? this is how they get away with it. I had a friend as a teenager whose father was a social worker. I think I’ve shared this anecdote before. He gang-raped her with his colleagues at parties, almost every weekend when she was handed over to him by the unit’s psych staff, under the eyes of her mother.
Did I ever see him do this? No. But I believed her from the reaction, the fallout from this. I believed her from the day she told me, by the tone of her voice and the haunted sincerity (though in fear of him she later retracted that harrowing statement, much as her symptoms did not recede). I believed her by the permanent suicidality, and the ‘voices’, and the awful, gory self-mutilation, by her swallowing of shards of broken glass and her drinking of strong bleach, tearing her hair out, sticking nails into her skin, refusing to eat. At what point do people turn and realise how remarkably insensate they’ve been over all this?
I’m still waiting for one single person in the dissident right to change their minds over this issue – mental health. It’s impossible. Makes me want to walk up to them and knock them out most of the time, and certainly has some exterminationist effect when it comes to the eventual yearned for processing of subhuman whites. I simply don’t understand why a simple point is so difficult to grasp. I didn’t think I was dealing with inveterate morons.
Barbara Rogers, Alice Miller’s German disciple who lived here in Mexico and recently moved to Berlin, called this phenomenon ‘the most powerful taboo of the human mind’.
The reason for this lack of empathy, sympathy for the victim or compassion—they are three very different things, although the normies use these words synonymously—is simply that these experiences have never happened to them.
A Spanish woman who twenty years ago found my anti-psychiatric texts on the internet visited me in my home country to meet me. She told me that only if you have an experience like hers will you be able to understand.
Well, there were people who didn’t have those experiences and understood the subject, like Theodore Lidz, Ronald Laing and Silvano Arieti: people who wrote more directly and frankly than the researchers of today who rebel against the medical model of mental disorders (e.g., Peter Breggin and Colin Ross).
If the autobiographical genre I want to inaugurate, of which you and John Modrow are already a part, were to become popular in the future, there could be a paradigm shift not only in the mental health professions, but also in parent-child relationships.
But for the moment it is just a dream…
I had meant to say… I think you’re right about Don Black’s son’s sex ‘changing’. I noticed with homosexuals too, most (from anecdotal evidence – any I’ve heard of and researched, or been told by), a fair chunk at least, seem to have been sexually abused, much as I’m sure they wouldn’t all admit it, or even know themselves without Jeffrey Dahmer-style total repression. As with the true autism aetiology point, no one wants to admit it. I find trannies grotesque, but I do have a lot of pity for them, and the same with ‘leftists’. I notice Daniel Paul Schraber, the schizophrenic case from Morton Schatzmann’s ‘Soul-Murder’ had used to remark that he ‘felt like a woman before God’, much as he was reluctant about it. It became clearer from Morton’s analysis that Schreber’s father sexually and physically abused him at length. So no, much as I don’t agree with their presentation… I do feel for them quite a bit. As you say, to do that at all, it’s clear *something’s* gone wrong, rather like anorexics who ruin their bodies on account of external abuse and fear.
My problem with this whole issue is that I’m talking about other white Europeans, about other Aryans. Where on earth is the disparagers’ racial loyalty?! Their own people are being hurt and abused, and then they turn on them too, as with counter-currents, more obsessed by the fact that they’re traitors/naïve political timewasters i.e. leftists than working out what made them like that (and I’m not so sure it’s all genetic, and, as I put in my book, I utterly reject the ‘spiteful mutants’ hypothesis). Perhaps if they had been helped by their peers (and parents/relatives) they wouldn’t *be* trannies, wouldn’t *be* mindless progressives. It infuriates me, seeing the stigma against mental health in action. I can’t stand this inter-Aryan cruelty, purely from the deniers’ own position of naivety, and pride, and ignorance, as if the world wasn’t like this, a world on the whole from my experience that they have never seen.
Hi Benjamin, I just read this article. In the article when one clicks on the clips (word in red) one reads that your book is not for sale and is available for free, preferably with a small donation. Is this so?
Ah hello! Yes, The Less Than Jolly Heretic will soon be for ‘sale’ (I’m just doing my very final proof reads). The problem is I can’t market it through Lulu/my other website’s shop directly, as I’m afraid I’d be censored (or arrested) pretty much immediately. I was a little judicious with the online excerpts selection. Thus I have to order copies myself, wait for them to arrive, then post them out, hence the need for a PayPal donation to cover part of that (or P&P). I don’t want to put an official price tag on it, but I have to get *something* or I won’t be able to supply any, much as I don’t mind running at a slight loss provided people read it.
It’s Schism, my big diaries & letter book, that isn’t for sale. It’s too unwieldy, and, much as i store a hardcopy a year just for safety in case my PC goes down, it still needs a lot of formatting to be honest (and is also kind of a lowkey anti-State ‘whistleblower’ perspective that names names, so I’m not sure as to prudence of sticking it out there).
I’ll try and sort out a PayPal account in the next day or so, and put it on my Spare Videos Blog website. Unfortunately I’ll have to ask for addresses (or a PO Box) also, but I hope that’s okay. I’ll put an email address up also.
Ok Benjamin,thanks. Mr Tort just so you know I have read in Spanish HOJAS SUSSURANTES & EL GRIAL in their entirety. As for your second book ME AYUDARÁS?… I have read only 1/3 and did not get around to finish it. I was working at the time as a wageslave at Amazon and had a hard time finishing the book due to many health issues and problems I encountered there with Corporate (Management) and a few workers. Perhaps I will have a chance to finish reading the second book of your trilogy in the future. Cheers.